Series of Thoughts In Chaos in Series

I've noticed how serious thoughts in nonstop series or continuity can be in chaotic manner. This is kind of psychological illness I guess though might not be a serious problem. But it is a problem that when I want to think about something seriously, new different topics come in and distract my mind - and usually I am swayed toward new thoughts. I'm kind of someone who thinks anything seriously and because of this, my emotion is usually high in my thoughts. As thoughts possess me, I feel like to be a lone person though loneliness is still my emotional problem occasionally.

Unfortunately, the society pities lonely people by forcing us to believe that loneliness is a serious pain. Even though, it is indeed a pain, the society should not force people believe this is serious. Loneliness is natural and everybody has to live with it somewhat. This is not a problem. So the society should lecture people how beautiful loneliness is.

Indeed, loneliness or whatever you want to interpret your emotion of being alone or left alone or being outcast, there is some profound beauty in it.

Every student needs private time and space to learn; so does everyone else! You see how beautiful this private time is! You never feel so lonely because you have purpose, a serious one or not.

A writer needs to write. A painter needs to paint. A boxer needs to practice. A monk needs to meditate. Whoever has a serious thing to do, whether to concentrate or to inspire or to create, needs privacy, silence, ambience, solitude and a harmonious or reflective surrounding. A purpose in loneliness makes loneliness a necessary thing.

Still loneliness can bite with bone crashing bites anyone deep into the boneless heart at anytime! It can bite because one has a belief that loneliness is a bad situation. This belief can makes one mad! Very, very mad! This madness can make one to be too sensitive, needy and worse of all is self pitying. Usually the young ones who are forced by who want attention or want to bully, their inexperienced emotion can kill them.

How could one believe that if one die with someone one loves will make the two together again afterlife? If this is the idea to make suicide, then must be very stupid. Isn’t it better to be now with the loved ones then afterlife? And the other reason is – if not in this life, let us be together after life? To believe this, one must know who made this law and who decides.

No sages ever said suicide would ever bring you luck or new opportunity. Well, you don’t have to believe them but at least you better not do anything stupid anyway. None of the ones who killed themselves can provide the reality so you can say it’s fifty-fifty chance. But why would one believes in fifty-fifty? One rather believes in current reality than uncertain hope. No hope ever come completely a hundred percents as expected. This is reality in usual nature.

But beware, loneliness can kill! It kills mentally like a cancer.

I try to know my psychological problem. And I found what I’ve just written. It’s ok, isn’t it?